gRoUnDhOg DaY!!!

I wake up every day to the same thing…the same feeling of impending doom…I do the same exact thing…go to the same coffee shop…order the same nonfat latte…and go to sleep in the same rigid posture with the same when is this going to be over feeling! I have my board exam coming up in about ten days so you can just imagine how horrible I look and feel at this point…actually…no you probably can’t because unlike normal people who have everyday stress in their lives and still manage to take care of themselves and put in an effort to look presentable…I am not one of those people…I just look like crap!

So the downward spiral of my life started a couple of days ago when I woke up one morning and was just physically exhausted…I was soo tired that I got up did the regular brush my teeth and wash my face…but unlike every morning I just couldn’t put in the energy to take a shower…I literally put on a pair of jeans and walked out of my house with the same t-shirt I wore to bed! Yes I am not making that up!

The next day I realize that I have become socially incompetent…I honestly cannot even carry on a normal conversation about nothing…I think I have been reading about soo many diseases that I have forgotten the common words in the English language…it would be excusable to some point if I actually was knowledgeable about medicine but even that I cannot recall….
sooo I was talking to my mom…the last person who would give up on me…I mean she has to love me unconditionally….and she should talk to me regardless of me making any sense…so she puts me on speakerphone…tells me that she is just doing stuff but she is listening…so I go on telling her this story about a movie I watched at 2 in the morning cuz I couldn’t sleep…a couple of minutes later…I hear my dad say my name and I am like dad where did u come from…and in a confused tone he goes who are you talkin to…so I am like mom obviously who else would I be talking to…and he responds…well she left for bed bath a couple of min ago…OMG!!

And I think this morning I officially hit the lowest point of my studying career….I went to the laundromat cuz I have absolutely nothing left to wear…so I am in there tryin to get change for the washing machine and this girl next to me who is using the ATM (she is dressed all cute, hair done..makeup and all that jazz) taps me on my shoulder and is like excuse me…why isn’t the ATM working…has it been giving you these problems? My jaw just dropped open…I guess my silence and blank stare tipped her off…and she goes…omg! you don’t work here!

When is this day going to end?????

signed: Macky