sLeEpEr StAlKeR

So any of you Facebook stalk??? My Space stalk??? As you can tell, I’m in need of some serious agreeableness this morning. You see up till a year and a half ago I was quite proud to be a normal & sane individual. I was going about living my independent life, free of chaos, I didn’t care to know who was doing what as long as I was doing what I needed & wanted to do. But soon this thing, this magic called Facebook appeared. It was all well and good in the beginning, I mean how refreshing it was to connect with cousins and friends I hadn’t seen in ages…oh look there’s that boy I had a crush on back in high school…oh my god look at her she’s put on so much weight…FUN…hooked on Facebook!!! Btw I was totally addicted to THE WALL…whoever invented the damn thing…with every new post I felt important…I went from txt’in and callin my friends to messaging them on Facebook “wux up/what’s goin on/u busy?” Within moments you went from 5 friends to 300 friends…all of a sudden I was Catherine Zeta-Jones and Peter Petrelli from Heroes…stupid but felt like maybe I should just leave that stuff on there so people will get to know me better…what’s better than a renowned Personality Test telling you you are as sexy as Angelina Jolie…man, that felt good…but then the craziness started…and soon I began to notice symptoms of insanity within me and around me…little snippets of it here n there…called Facebook stalking!!! It’s a sickness, madness, spurrrreading…and so far, no sign of alleviation is on the horizon atleast for me. This reliance on other people’s lives is noxious for my self-esteem. The other day I ran into people I hardly see unless at dholkees or Eid parties of course yet they happen to be my friends on Facebook (I’m nice that way, I guess I’ve allowed all sorts of people to interfere in my life) and they knew exactly where I had been and what I had been up to the weekend before…I was bewildered…and then the verdict came out “Oh we know because we were reading the comments on your wall”…bummer!! That’s not right! But hell I do the same…well at least I don’t walk up to random people and gladly unveil my stupidity to them. A couple of weeks back I got this insane post on my wall saying forward your message onto your friends to find out who stalks your profile the most…and I panicked…because if I can manage to do that, SO CAN THEY!!! I was so fearful of it I ignored the message altogether as if it doesn’t even exist on my wall…I figured I’d rather not know…because if it works, and those MoFo’s find out I’ve spent countless days n nights staring at their profile page, I’m gonna have to bury my head someplace dark and hope to be never spotted again. A few days later my sister innocently confessed to something…she told me she was browsing thru someone’s profile and her picture appeared on their profile page, right underneath it were the words “YOU WERE HERE”…she goes she panicked…and then just so it would seem like she wasn’t sniffin around, she said she was bound to leave a friendly msg on their wall. After listening to that, I diverted all my energy into some digging in Facebook and HA HA…found out it was a SCAM…altogether…thank GOD for that!!! ohhhh the relief…but it was sad at the same time, to see what had become of this individual I refer to as ME! I was NEVER like that…I could care less about the world around me or other people’s lives…the fuel to my life was my own independence…and now? The source of energy has been diverted to dependence…and this is not what I want my life to become. I don’t like the new ME, the “sleeper” stalker!!! Which leads me to my thought of the day…with this new era of technology, as we grow more connected to each other, are we growing that apart from ourselves?

signed: Thinker-Bell